listening: filth and wisdom ost
mood: -:D

Madonnas directorial debut, FILTH AND WISDOM, is a hilariously sexy tale of three roommates who must delve into mischievous and naughty behavior in pursuit of bigger and brighter futures. A Ukrainian immigrant, A.K. (Eugene Hutz), finances his dreams of trans-continental superstardom with his band, Gogol Bordello, by turning tricks as a role-playing cross dresser. As A.K. literally whips the privileged of London into shape, he also secretly pines for the object of his affection, Holly (Holly Weston), an aspiring ballerina looking for her big break while moonlighting as a slippery stripper. Meanwhile, Juliette (Vicky Mclure) steals medicine from her pharmaceutical job in hopes of quenching her dreams of helping Africas youth. FILTH AND WISDOM is every bit as erotic and playful as it is poignant and touching, revealing the universal struggles we all face in our pursuits of happiness.

listening: lush - superblast
mood: why not?

The trouble with wanting it is the fear of loosing or never getting it. The thoughts make u feel weak.
I thought of giving up more than a hundred times. But it seems that its gonna take more than that.
Don't pretend that you don't know all this while. You have been trying hard acting differently.
Like i said, until i could smile again looking at myself in e mirror.. then that's happiness and satisfaction.. but i cried instead.

listening: screw the man - the jerk offs
mood: screw it

Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist.. read it.. cute, cool, funny story. the movie is out soon. a comedy about two teens thrust together for one hilarious, sleepless night of adventure in a world of mix tapes, late-night living, and, live, loud music. Nick frequents New York’s indie rock scene nursing a broken heart and Norah is questioning all of her assumptions about the world. Though they have nothing in common except for their taste in music, their chance encounter leads to an all-night quest to find a legendary band’s secret show and ends up becoming the first date that could change both their lives.


and so i reach my 400th post.. only? more actually after i did delete a few last few yrs due to some unthink things. cheer up.. ok go!

listening: sugar spun sister - the stone roses

listening: cintaku 100% - mas idayu
mood: trying hard to entertain myself

have hard time telling people how I feel. No one will understand until they are million miles from home in a stranded place alone.
until i could smile again looking at myself in e mirror.. then that's happiness and satisfaction.

listening: secret - the pierces
mood: hungry

You say you want to know her like a lover
And undo her damage, she'll be new again
Soon you'll find that if you try to save her
It will lose her anger
You will never win
i miss the taste...

listening: sahara hotnights - visit to vienna
mood: imbas balik

exactly last year , this day... was SHIT!!!

all my plans never happen and delayed. ouh well... shit happens

listening: ->

listening: business misery - paramore
mood: slackingly bored

Is it true that on august 27, 2008, mars will be almost as close to the earth as the moon?

No, Mars never gets anywhere near as close to the Earth as the Moon does. You are the victim of a hoax email that circulates every year around this time.

This is an urban myth which began with an email which was sort of true in 2003, that Mars would be very close and bright. It also had a line in it which suggested that Mars, IN A TELESCOPE, would look as large as the Moon with the naked eye. Somewhere along the way, the "with a telescope" bit disappeared. August 2003 came and went, and many people had wonderful views of Mars through telescopes provided by amateur astronomers around the world.

Then the email resurfaced in 2004, when Mars was on the far side of the Sun. Then again in 2005, when Mars was in opposition in October, not August, and quite a bit smaller. Then again in 2006, when Mars was again on the far side of the Sun. Then again in 2007, when opposition was in December, and Mars smaller still. Now, you're the victim of this fake email in 2008! Mars is again on the far side of the Sun.

When will people learn that astronomical events are predicted for a particular date, which has absolutely nothing to do with Earth years, and you can't just keep recycling the same prediction and changing the year? Everything on Mars happens in a 26 month cycle: August 2003, October 2005, December 2007, etc.

AND



HMMMMMM....

listening: who do u dance for - sahara hotnight
mood: go ala port racer




TakaNuva- Partially drained of light by a shadow leech, Takanuva struggles to hold off the corruption eating away at him. Armed with a Midak skyblaster and a giant 3-pronged power lance, this mighty power of light is a match for any foe!
Jetrax T6 - Antroz has hijacked the Jetrax T6 and now flies it against the Toa Nuva! Open the cockpit to put him inside, then launch your attack with three powerful Midak skyblasters! Includes special edition Antroz figure.

listening: run - snowpatrol
mood: seeking and figuring still

What is life about? Money? Fame? Fortune? Life is more than material Things. Life is about things that matter. Its about value. Life is about experiencing. To have the ability to see the beauty of nature that surround us. To hear our favorite song, laughter, children playing. To feel one closeness, warm sand between your toes, the softness of a babies skin. To feel fresh sheets, the smell before it rains, the fragrance of the one u love. To taste your favorite food. The secret that opens the door to abundant gratitiude we must be grateful. for life. for breath. for ourslef. we must love ourself in order to love others. be greateful for frienship. for family. be greatful to experience vision is the ability to see beyond who you are now. vision is that ability to see where you are now. to imagine what does not exist now in your life. you can become someone new today if you imagine it. if you simply envision it. dreams do come true. but first u must have a dream. dreams are free. there are no required down payments. i challenge you. i dare you. i dare you to draem the biggest dream possible. for u and your family. i challenge you. dreams can and do come true when you practice an attitude of gratitude

We all work with one infinite power
Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting
We are like magnets - like attracts like. You become and attract what you think
Every thoughts have a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy
People think about what they don't want and attract more of the same
Thought equal creation. If these thoughts are attached to powerful emotions(good or bad) that speeds the creation
You attract your dominant thoughts
Those who speak most of illness have it, those who speak most of prosperity have it
You cannot have the universe without the mind entering into it
Your thoughts cause your feelings
Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming
You get exactly what you are feeling!
Happy feelings will attract more happy circumstances
You can begin feeling whatever you want... the Universe will correspond to the nature of your song
What you focus on with thought and feeling is what you attract into your experience
"you create your own universe as you go along" - Winston Churchill
It's important to feel good!
Life can and should be phenomenal... and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction!
The Universe likes speed. Don't delay, don't second guess, don't doubt...
When the opportunity or impulse is there, ACT!
The Universe will rearrange itself accordingly
Gratitude will bring more into our lives immediately
Play the picture in your mind - focus on the end result
Visualize! Rehearse your future!
An affirmative thought is 100 times more powerful than a negative one
Set a goal so big that if you achieved it, it would blow your mind!
You are the only one that creates your reality
No one else can think or feel for you, it;s you, only you!
Are your thoughts worthy of you? If not, NOW is the time to change them

Conclusion:-

• We are responsible for everything in our lives
• Your imagination is an extremely powerful tool
• Our life is as it is because we created it ourselves
• We can change the results in our lives
• Your emotions are a guide to let you know if you are ‘on track’
• We can do, be and have anything we want

listening: Vixen of Seduction - The Model Lipstiques
mood: :D

sperm sample

A 70-year-old man went to his doctor’s office to get a sperm count. The doctor gave the man a jar and said, “Take this jar home and bring me back a sample tomorrow.”

The next day the 70-year-old man reappears at the doctor’s office and gives him the jar, which is as clean and empty as on the previous day.

The doctor asked what happened and the man explains, “Well, doc, it’s like this: First I tried with my right hand, but nothing. Then I tried with my left hand, but still nothing. Then I asked my wife for help. She tried with her right hand, with nothing. Then her left, but nothing. She even tried with her mouth, first with the teeth in, then with the teeth out, and still nothing. We even called up the lady next door and she tried with both hands and her mouth too, but nothing.”

The doctor was shocked! “You asked your neighbor?”

The old man replied, “Yep, but no matter what we tried we couldn’t get the darn jar open!”

Lifetime Savings

A small tourist hotel was all abuzz about an afternoon wedding where the groom was 95 and the bride was 23.

The groom looked pretty feeble and the feeling was that the wedding night might kill him, because his bride was a healthy, vivacious young woman.

But lo and behold, the next morning, the bride came down the main staircase slowly, step by step, hanging onto the banister for dear life.

She finally managed to get to the counter of the little shop in the hotel. The clerk looked really concerned, “Whatever happened to you, honey? You look like you’ve been wrestling an alligator!”

The bride groaned, hung on to the counter and managed to speak, “Oh God! When he told me he’d been saving up for 75 years, I thought he meant his money!!”

listening: The Model Lipstiques - Madamme Lucha 69
Mood: The Secret - thinking still

Watch The Secret movie on the tuesday. hmmmm... again.. hmmmm..

there's no secret to The Secret. the book and movie simply state that your thoughts control the universe. through this "law of attraction" u "manifest" ur desires. "it is exactly like placing an order from a catalogue. … you must know that what u want is urs the moment u ask." "See urself living in abundance and u will attract it. It works every time, with every person." the appeal is obvious. forget education, effort, performance. everything u want—money, power, comfortable shoes—is urs simply by wanting it enough.there are certain caveats. apparently the universe has a language-processing disorder and doesn't comprehend standard English usage of the words don't, not, and no. so, as the show explains, if u summon the universe by saying, "I don't want to spill something on this outfit," the universe translates this as, "I want to spill something on this outfit." If only Rhonda Byrne, the television producer who is the author of the book and creator of the DVD, had been there to counsel those negative authors of the Ten Commandments!
given my skepticism, how could I make myself believe in The Secret enough to give it a fair test? To quote one of The Secret's avatars, Ralph Waldo Emerson, "A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds." clearly, The Secret is drivel, but why should that stop me from sincerely throwing myself into seeing if it worked? I am already deeply susceptible to superstition and seeing signs—if i find a penny (faceup only), I pick it up knowing something good will happen to me. As self-absorbed as i already am, i loved the permission the book gave to sink deeper into a Jacuzzi of megalomania. As The Secret points out: "You are the master of the Universe. You are the heir to the kingdom. you are the perfection of Life." Just as I'd always suspected!

listening: NataliaOreiro - Memuero de Amor
mood: apathetic

it is really shit how one easily jump to such wrong conclusion and burst out with wrong asssumptions.

i think i shouldn't 've put so much hope, even if it was with my ownself. i knew that i can always trust on my instinct.. even though i knew something gonna turn out wrong. and this time, i've place a bet on my instinct again and that something did turn out wrong. and so... i lost. it hurt to lose

we humans need to always keep in mind that there's God and whatever shit happens, it is His plan.

He must have a reason why certain things don't work or happened. or in other words things happen for a reason.

so u r disappointed?.. so am i. then be it!?

i hate the fact that tomorrow is monday.
i hate the fact that the weekend is ending very soon
i hate the fact that i've been spending the weekends feeling guilty, sorry, bored, empty mind, no advance planning or errands need to b done.
i hate the fact that yesterday i did almost.. ya, almost nothing.

but thankfully i did spend the friday nite with the family at simpang bedok and the rest of e nite with adi bob without khalil with us.

and what i hate the most, is the fact that camping will begin in less than 24 hours!!
AND i'll b missing amy search perfoming today!!!! i hate it!
god damn it!

i am going for a long run tomorrow. pray hard.

listening: old yellow bricks - arctic monkeys
mood: sorrygerek per to come home for the weekend and recieve this from swatch for being a faithful member...

i've ask for the upgrading at 1st but after sometime i suddenly feel wanted to just get out of that place and serve the 2 yrs outside than in there. so its a 50-50, 2 weeks more and i'm out or gonna have to transfer squad..

it took me 2 nights to think and rethink weather to confront or not. after that, i regret pressing the send button and all misunderstandings and shitS happen when things are going quite ok. BUT! i was secretly reading and didn't disturb or doing anything wrong there! ouh well.. takes time again..

listening: crushcrushcrush - paramore
mood: rock n roll baby

and so the weekend ends again... damn!

listening: say hello(angello&Ingrosso remix) deep dish
mood: botak lagi?

just cut botak 2 weeks ago and need to cut again.. wat's that for? ouh well..

point out.. unsuccessful pes upgrading. staying another 2weeks plus+. posting soon to confirm...
yes i'm slacking! hate the sleepy class. hate the welfare given. and hate to see the others suffer. hate to be with the skinners!

while others kena pump. i'll b bored watching them one corner. thank god i dun need to fall out but join sop with the pt which left my limps and right foot especially- aching! it was FUN!!!

going back in 24 hr time! ok go!
any other errands? so far no i guess.. try to have the time to send khalil at e airport this saturday to australia for his studies.. all the best jack!

Listening: the cure - friday i'm in love
mood: something like emotional feeling thing.. wat is it?

exactly this time. 3 yrs ago
was having my attachment on board a ship and writing this diary whom i suppose to present it to " " once i finish my service. but it's still with me till now.
at this date 3 yrs ago.. my entry starts...
'I'm sick. Sick? Yes sick. ....(all e usual complains bout the tiring life onboard).... Now here i am finding and spending my time alone while others watching movie, me going through pictures of " ", family and friends i have with me now. Now looking at " " with the red rose with her. ....(tell how the 'love' thing grows all)....
k the entry for that day was more to how i felt for " ", how i met her and some promises we made.

reading those, i can't imagine myself! its so wussy and all. but... but, its e truth. that is y till now, i am still trying to win her back. she decided to take a break and i've only accepted half heartedly actually, hoping so much that i will still win her heart after my attachment... but till now it is still going on. even when i've been told to carry on, move on... or watever they call it.
i can't. sorry... i can't.
i wanted to put up this one photo of " " i have while the others i give back to her, pretending how ok i was with e fact that we have to split. but i have to respect her privacy.
so after feeling emo, now i feel like a psycho having this entry. or am i?

at late night, loneliness and sleepless invites these miss feelings. my memories of u have not diminished. and to whom should i tell/share?
this anxiety is filling my head.

and if ur love were to bloom like it did before, for sure i wouldn't b this entangled. it's not my fault that all this (love affair) is shattered. when the trouble begin from u, the sharp words,
hence broken

i could not have imagined. your words are like bamboo shards. hurt this heart without sympathy in ur's
i just feel like shouting out my disappointment.

lovers forget their past. our love was strong in the past. where have u thrown my love once u held high.

why is all this happening? when i have never been unfaithful towards u.

too shy or am i taking it slow or too slow. or should i just give up.

i should have just ask her when we met last few weeks. but i know, there weren't the perfect moment. we were just beside each other. i could have just turn my head and start a conversation. while my ears was with e group. but my heart and mind was pushing myself to say something out.. but end up scolding myself. all we could do is giving smses and it'll b then left hanging as usual. now? regret right...

wat in e world i'm doing? get back in line! bariiiiis! sediiiiia! ouh fuck....

listening: letto - sandaran hati
mood: eheh.. eheh.. eheh.. tah?

can still b here wasting my time when i should be packing my bag for NS tomorrow. wat!? did i heard wrongly? yes N fucking S.. NS!
and yes, am enlisting tmr and still in e process of sotong blurring aka blur macam sotong on wat to pack and expect tomorrow.

while i just got back from e just 21yr old boy chalet at changi. didn't expect myself to b there e whole 3 nights when i shud b at home with e family since going in tmr.

'well, all this doing happen for a reason..' NO! thats not from me! that is wat the others keep on jeering at me the whole time there. bastards! nice playing along with those bastards though. i did all those with sincerity ok. dengan ikhlas. well, did scored hatrick each day :P

well happy birthday big boy! remember pesanan aku.. nak? aku tau kau suke aku.. :P see u when i see u in camp! oi! da ke blom!?

ps. y no one ask me y i give " " flowers.
but its a sunflower. bright and cheery, bold yet comfortable, the sunflowers is a warm and caring gift. ... or is it?

listening: umbrella - vanilla sky(rihanna cover)
mood: 10 days to go!